not April Fools Day

We had the ultrasound today and I was expecting the worst, all symptoms vanished yesterday after finding the spotting, and I slept soundly all night without the need for a toilet break. Needless to say, we were very relieved that the ultrasound revealed that we had a heartbeat, actually two heartbeats.

Twins
Originally uploaded by lounbern

Twin 1
Originally uploaded by lounbern

Twin 2
Originally uploaded by lounbern

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a little bit freaking

I am spotting, not much but I will be going back to the loo to check before my next meeting at 2.30pm, if not before. If it continues I am going home or I will not be just a little bit freaking.





I am a little bit reassured by wiki.answers but not totally. I wish I could get onto B who is at a meeting most of the day and only contactable by mobile which he has not answered.





I think we should see if the clinic can do another bloodtest. The ultrasound on Monday seems too far away.

3ish B has been in contact and rung the clinic, we have an appointment with them tomorrow, midday.

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pram

We have our fingers crossed that we have not been a bit premature or jinxed this pregnancy. But today we bought a pram. It was a deal to good to be refused with 50- 70%. My mum had seen an add for a Bugaboo Warehouse Sale in Waterloo and we went just for the look. Apparently, this is the first time the warehouse has done a sale and does not forsee any for the future. Anyway, we got the limited edition denim, and the sand fleece accessories. There wasn't much choice by Sunday, which was the second day of the sale.

It seemed like a positive thing to be doing, amidst the nausea and exhaustion.
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five weeks

it was five weeks yesterday. The blood test last Friday confirmed that I am pregnant. I am waiting to get excited. It comes every now and then but, I am afraid past experiences have got me holding my emotions in check. We have an ultrasound booked with the obstetrician we have chosen in a few weeks, I am guessing once we pass that milestone we can relax.

Still radiating heat, experiencing the odd wave of nausea, and not sleeping terribly well. Ridiculous considering I am only five weeks along.
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pregnant

A picture tells a 1000 words...
Originally uploaded by lounbern

I know that we were told not to, but well, I had to know. Although this is not conclusive it eases the tension of waiting for Friday's blood test. It also explains the hot flushes, actually the constant furnace that I have become.


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don't do a home pregnancy test

in the early hours of this morning, say 3am, that is exactly what we were doing. I was not an overly willing participant, I was tired, needed a pit stop, and wanted to get back to sleep as quickly as possible. I have woken every day this week around this time, with varying success at getting back to sleep. Doing a home pregnancy test is not conducive for a good nights sleep, or for a settled day. The test was negative, which made me feel really depressed. Too tired to search for answers and finding no satisfying answers on the internet later in the day. It wasn't until the clinic rang this afternoon, asking after me, that my fears were settled. It is too early and a waste of time to be doing a test at this stage. Instead, the advice from the nurse, wait till the blood test next Friday.
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tears

I am feeling really teary today, waiting for the bloodtest to confirm whether we are pregnant or not is doing me in. Nine days to go, and with work rather stressful at the moment, I am trying really hard to let the stress pass over me.
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