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Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts

Monday, June 23, 2008

Not so good news...

This morning, led us back to the clinic for a final pregnancy blood test, that I know will be a negative...

You see, last Thursday, I started 'spotting' which led to a very painful full period over the weekend. All I wanted to do was to stay in bed & keep warm on a sunny winters day. But this was not to be with B doing the final painting on Saturday and a Sunday jam packed with birthday celebrations!

Blood test this morning was difficult, both mentally knowing what the outcome will be, but also physically as the cold weather (6 degrees the car was telling me) and no breakfast or fluid to assist the veins to 'pop out'. Alicia, the nurse, was really lovely, first trying my usual spot in my right arm, then the the same spot in my left, both without success. She then tried a smaller gauge needle and back to the right, and with the idol threat of tears if she could not find it, and B reaching for the tissue box, success with a free flowing blood vacutainer!

Oh well, in a couple of hours all will be revealed with the standard phone call to B at around 1pm. Alicia did say that 9/10 period bleeds show a negative, whilst there is a 1/10 chance it may be positive, there is little to no hope, I know!

*** UPDATE ***
The 2.30pm phone call results shows, that there is hCG levels in the results, so they will be repeating them again on Thursday! The saga continues...
*** UPDATE ***

Saturday, May 17, 2008

I wish I could sleep

This is getting a little ridiculous, I am awake, wide awake, even though I have tried to go back to sleep.

My arm and shoulders are aching and I am seriously depressed. It came over me like a wave yesterday, made worse no doubt because I haven't been sleeping too well. I found one of the information sheets from the clinic and it noted that muscle aches and depression were possible side effects of the hormonal state that synarel puts you in. I can't remember what it said about insomnia, but I am sure that must have been there too. In my wacko state I am also questioning whether I really want a baby or not. I am crazy at the moment. Thank goodness it is the weekend.