Pregnancy ticker

Sunday, May 18, 2008

I do not like 4am

this is so ridiculous, I want to be asleep. Yesterday, I was so tired by the evening, that I was at least able to get off to sleep without much trouble, that I was hoping I would sleep to the normal hour of 6am today, but no, here I am with my husband snoring next to me, and I am wide awake.

I had a terrible day yesterday and am determined not to be like that today. I was so depressed, had a couple of howls, felt anxious for no reason, and got myself into such a state that the dinner that B was slow cooking was abandoned a couple of hours in, and distraction sought by inviting ourselves to dinner at my parents. Thank you mum.

I got my period yesterday, a day or so early according to the chart, nothing to worry about according to the clinic. I am hoping the rollercoaster of emotions settles down for a bit. I still have a blood test on Thursday, the purpose of the blood test being to see how the body has reacted to the Synarel. I think that I can tell them that right now.

Yesterday, I also listened to my voicemail messages from that day and the day before (my phone had lost charge on Friday) and one of the messages provided a happy of sorts distraction. I think that I might have an interview for a job that I wouldn't mind, which diven the current process could get really complicated if I am successful on both counts.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

I wish I could sleep

This is getting a little ridiculous, I am awake, wide awake, even though I have tried to go back to sleep.

My arm and shoulders are aching and I am seriously depressed. It came over me like a wave yesterday, made worse no doubt because I haven't been sleeping too well. I found one of the information sheets from the clinic and it noted that muscle aches and depression were possible side effects of the hormonal state that synarel puts you in. I can't remember what it said about insomnia, but I am sure that must have been there too. In my wacko state I am also questioning whether I really want a baby or not. I am crazy at the moment. Thank goodness it is the weekend.

Friday, May 16, 2008

synarel commenced

I stopped the provera on Monday and no period has followed, yay I think. I have a blood test on May 22.

It's my sixth day on synarel, a nasal spray that suppresses your own hormones. So far so good, although I have had a couple of nights of insomnia followed by waking up super early. I am not sure how much this is related though as there are little reported synarel side effects, and from time to time I suffer from insomnia anyway.

I also have an ache in my right arm and in the calf of my right leg, again I don't think this is related as I have been complaining of the pain in my leg since November last year and keep promising myself to get it checked out. The arm, I think is the result of removing nails last Saturday from timbers that we will be reusing in a project, and too much time spent on the computer.

Really the only issue I have been having with the Synarel is administering the spray. I am meant to have one spray in the morning and one in the evening, exactly 12 hours apart. On a couple of occassions I have had to give an additional spray, once because I had the spray too far up my nose and it just ran down the nozzle, and another time because I didn't take the clear plastic cover off the nozzle, the husband was actually giving me a hand this time and had tried twice before he realised the cover was on, the third time that the safety ring was still on. So it was actually four times lucky.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

not quite the beginning

we are not new to the fertility clinic, but we are at the beginning of an IVF treatment so here goes....

after a rather heavy and sudden period the day before a blood test that was meant to tell me I was pregnant, it was a rush to schedule a meeting with my rather busy Specialist so that we could commence an IVF treatment. Timing is everything in this game. We needed to start the 'sniffy stuff' Syrinal (a nasal spray that blocks the pituitary) by day 22, that's if you are on a normal cycle. I am in no way normal though, we are at day????? I have lost count. Actually, I leave the counting to the clinic staff and my husband, and the husband has informed me I am at Day 28.

Day 21 was a meeting with the clinic and a blood test to see if I had ovulated. A phonecall in the afternoon to inform me (well B, I don't want to talk about it) that I hadn't ovulated and will need another blood test next week.

Day 28 another blood test, again the phonecall that I hadn't ovulated and come back for another blood test next week. Now this is where I stamp my foot and remind B, to remind the clinic that I do not have a normal cycle, this could go on for years and I am impatient. The new plan is that I commence on a course of Provera (I am not sure exactly what this is meant to do other than in the past it has brought on a Period, and that is good), so Provera is to be taken for seven days and on the sixth day I start the sniffy stuff. I am not sure if I will get a Period but that is part of the rollercoaster ride. Fasten your safety belts.